Change

Change, change, change. Grow, grow, grow. Progress to towards the goal.

My waking and sometimes dreaming world has been consumed almost exclusively with these thoughts. I am always thinking about the future. I am consumed with making my 'dream' world my reality. Very few thoughts about the present dwell in my head unless they relate to that future me.

However, there are things in my life now that when gone I will miss. Things that are already changing in small almost unnoticeable ways.

I think there is a point and time in your life when the changes become all you notice. When all you see are things the way they used to be. When you wish you could visit the times, places, and people as you would a destination.

I will miss the crass old Baltimore charm of Miss Nancy. The "See that girl up there?, Sheee wants YOUR BODY!" The kind of woman that you will soon only find in Waters films.

I will miss Playing video games on those really boring dead days with Gary. The old kind hearted, very grumpy, Homeless 60 something video game fanatic, that lives in the store.

The extreme ditzyness of Ann. another old Baltimore lass. Who cant count worth a shit and sees the world in the most simplistic of ways. No nuance, only the black, the white, only reality as she lives it. Truth with no intention of grasping the powers and reason behind it. Brutal Honesty.

The constant parade of Blue Collar Baltimore through these doors. The people that Baltimore would like to make disappear into a more cosmopolitan veneer. The people who the new trendy Baltimoreans wish would vanish from their new trendy neighborhoods.

It want to be away from here but I want it to stay the same so I can come back to visit when the remembrance strikes me.
It wont. Its changing already.